this has been the rockiest year of my life mostly due to you Bob F. you always have to be so hostile and defensive, you never hear what I have to say and quickly dismiss it.
You claim you make no rules but you tell me what I "should" do in order to help alleviate the situation and no cause more fighting....when I do. Not only do I not get the expectd outcome of CALMNESS no fighting, I get more hostility and bullshit. I'm so tired of your bullshit. You just make rules as you go along but when I actually try to follow them as part of me changing, you just go back to your old fucked up ways. One step forward and you push me 4 steps back. Why would I continue to be nice to you when aggravation is all I get? I absolutely hate talking to you. I hate you period. I dont know why or how it got to this point but you turned into this ugly pathetic piece of shit that I don't even recognize. unfortunately your friends and family don't get to see this ugly side of you. Only me. We've been going at this "let's try to improve bullshit" for weeks/months. It's not working. I've contemplated moving out too many fucking times. I need to gather up my balls and just do it. I rather live with strangers than deal with your bullshit.
I love how when I try to tell you something you immediately turn it around and point the finger at me. Then that automaticaly escalates because I"m not gonig to be a dipshit and take your shit for no goddamn reason when I was just trying to talk to you. You don't let conversations happen you fucking escalate it by putting your stupid sarcastic remarks and stupid fucking attitude.
(just interrupted me to fight more and tries to slam the door unsucessfully I barely said a word I said no when he asked if those clothes needed to be washed. I can't even say NO correctly. he goes off saying that I rolled my eyes. I was typing this blog post how the fuck can I roll my eyes? I looked up to see what the fuck he was talking about and he said I said this and that and that I rolled my eyes" do you see where this is going? you tell me that he's not starting shit? he claims my no had attitude. WTF? do you see what i mean when I say Ya can't win with him.

You are such a fucking piece of worthless shit I don't even recognize who you are. You argue like a little bitch. I can't stand being with you, I can't stand looking at you. I wish I could leave but all my shit is right here unpacked finally. I've already made arrangements to look at apts. You are such a worthless piece of shit wait I already said that. I wish the world could see what a useless douchebag you really are. If I met you at a party I would have never even speak to you because you exude " pathetic loser." You are not someone I'm proud to be with or even tell people I'm with. Sadly it wasn't always like this. You take no responsibility for your actions. You say things because they sound right to you like how you know what you need to work on but then don't. Just a talker, no actions.
I try to remind you in the most unconfrontational and nicest ways to do the stuff you said you were going to do.
If I have learned one thing from this it is ...You are full of empty and broken promises. If I need things done or something is urgent for us. do it my damn self. you have let me down so many goddamn times I dont even know why I have faith in what you say. It's all garbage. BUT YOU DON'T SEE IT. You think you're right.

This is how every argument goes, I try to tell you about what's going on and what's wrong with this picture(situation), you immediately point the finger at me telling me what I'm doing to cause it this of course gets me heated quickly and the fighting begins. Then when things have calmed down you tell me what you did wrong which is almost word for word what I was trying to get across before you started pointing the finger at me. Why do you make me go through the whole fight with you? Why do you bring me down?
I am losing my hair, my health has gone down. I have family problems but you are still insisiting that you are not causing any of these problems. You have no idea how disgusted I am with you, and with myself letting you get to me and changing who I am. I have become such an ugly introvert thanks to you. I blame myself for not leaving you sooner before it got this ugly. I will always associate your name with UGLY> You are the epitome of what an ugly person is: inside and out.
I've never called someone stupid piece of shit as much as I called. I wish I didn't feel that way but he's a total idiot that cannot do things on his own.
He doesn't know anything: common sense stuff. He likes to be taken advantage of. look at Amy. she treated him like a rug, walked all over him. Look at the other Amy, golddigger, he's ok with it. You give me no reason to want to be with you.
I miss the old you. I miss him so much. I can't stand this "new guy" I wish he would fucking die or get cancer. I want this guy to suffer. I cannot wait to move out. I don't want to be here with this piece of shit any longer. I do not want to fuck this guy let alone make "love" to him. I just want him to not touch me or annoy me with his stupid shit.
At this point I don't even think you're friendworthy I don't have shitty people in my life. You do not count as a friend. You're a fucked up piece of shit.